10/28/2025, im ILL and things ARE HARD
i have been SICK. for ABOUT A WEEK. Two weeks if you count My Suffering of the week before. Last week i washaving to deal with obscure mind horrors that tried to fight me for no reason and then once i defeated that problem i was stuck by a horrible cough and a fever. fever is gone now but the cough is so so annoying oh my god. i cannot excape. i cannot have a Moment Of Peace longer than 5 minutes. if i cough too much it makes me retch like im going to puke. Apparently i can't sleep past midnight without waking up and COUGHING. i feel bad for my roommate but also so grateful shes so chill and keeps making me tea. #ilovenicepeople. i have no idea what this illness is but i hope it ends Soon. my gift/curse to myself is to not go to work until its at least under control.
SPEAKING of which, I have been looking for a higher paying job so I can potentially move into an apartment with a few of my friends in the spring and out of the dorms (and if not then i can have enough to look for a place in the sumemer or just go home). so far it is not going well....
also i have had adhd my whole life but never been officially diagnosed (closest i got was a therepist saying you probably have it) and its fairly Obvious. but like. i was always super distracted and procrastinatory and time blind and forgetful of homework and such but now its starting to actually matter and becoming a Real Problem. so i have to go to the school doctors and ask for a real doctor and ask for a psychologist and get diagnosed and pay money and ask for a psychiatrist and ask for meds and pay money forever. im just a kitty cat why do i have to do that. to make my brain do what i want to. real annoying stuff. they dont tell you this.
my struggle :(